Firmly holding on to you..

I am not sure why,
I can’t sleep in the night, books don’t occupy me
I keep flipping the pages blankly

I am not sure why,
I wish to talk to you for hours and hours,
even all night and still wish more and more of you

I am not sure why,
I close my eyes and see you and open eyes too
for is your picture painted in my heart?

I am not sure why,
I love to hear you nag me, laugh at me
and then later treat me like a princess on strike

I am not sure why,
I feel so empty without you
My walls seem all drab, dull and so lachrymose

I am not sure why,
My every dream has you
Even in a nightmare I reach up to you

I am not sure why
I have forgotten my name for
My heart always calls out only your name

I am not sure why,
I keep counting the days and months
To give you a single finger or my hands?

But they are already firmly holding on to you